do I have

a blocked heart am I doomed

to loneliness apparently

I need to restructure

but I don’t know how

compassion for myself? what if I cant

teach. what if I lose my job

what if I am not able to confront

ptsd & love

I must find true love  

how can I trust the universe

to bring me the right relationship

how can I trigger love devotion

of some sort something to trust

to accept imperfection

but the kindness to who

someone is on the inside