I am in love with language and image and sound. Language shapes cultural perspective and our ability to enunciate self. The ideologies that we inhabit are architecturally shaped in image by the languages that support our ability to communicate. You do not need language or sound to dream. But you do to share it with someone. Social structures are based around language. I am interested in how language participates with culture. We are similar first. We take risk and voice our opinions. Sometimes this means failure, sometimes achievement. We do this to learn about the self and the world.
In my work I learn so that I may create positive change and teach. This takes place in the interviews I conduct with the women in womens quarterly conversation, my poetry, my music, living abroad and my experience working in non-profits and the larger community. Presently I am living in Bangkok, Thailand, teaching English as a foreign language to University students and Thai teachers. I challenge the ethical system of Western masculinity and femininity by examining one of the tools utilized to structure thought: language image and sound. Western patriarchal views are reinforced by the intricate organization of present day language. Abstraction of thought is typically dictated through rules that have been intentionally created to support a designed system of ideology. Uniformity is ordered through the linearity of our reading from left to right. Grammatically complete sentences contain sign and signifier to construct thought. Homogenous form is not only centered in the configuration of the sentence, but also in the minute components of the alphabet. Each letter in this sentence is in the same font, color, and size. This supports the consistency of the letter, word, sentence, and idea. The mind (sign) reduces the experience to object (signifier). The composition of thought and its sign signifier relationship delineates meaning. If I write or say something is real, then the listener or reader in this system will associate a learned characteristic of the world that is defined within the particular belief system.
It is important to intuitively tackle the technical forms of communication utilized to verbalize our experience of the self in relation to the outside world. We do this in order to deconstruct language and challenge the vectors used to promote an oppressive ethical system of the real. This opens the Western culture of ethics morals and sexuality through melopoeia, phanopoeia, and logopoeia. In most cases sound and how language rolls or clicks or rounds the mouth is intentional. Image is illustrated not only through the structure of the word in a poetic turn of the line, but also through the letters of the alphabet. Word and letter illuminate how these components act as image just as rightfully as the limber joint in a complete sentence. I create and disassemble my own tools that challenge the ethical system of Western patriarchal culture. The arrangement separates sign and signifier, mind and object (body), defined in an ideology of the masculine and feminine. It is the line, the word, the component, the environment, the art of the syntax, the rhetoric, the structure, the sound, the color, which embraces a different ethical thought process that is a non-linear, non-patriarchal feminine voice revealed.
What is the story image or sound that forms my soul? Is it my dreamscape, my professions eliciting environmental circumstance? Am I shaped by my experience, my internal dialogue? How do I heal? I accept every part of my self and nurture those that need a soft balance, those that need fierce motivation, and those that need someone to listen; an eclectic ear that allows for the music which is our soul, our song, our story. We participate as “other,” we create, we share, and we love. The science of ourselves is intertwined in the chemical and cellular highways of our memory and identity. Neural circuitry and chemical extractions empower self-expression that redirects these pathways. We are left with sensory dreams that enable us to share self in our environment, relationships, memory, experience, and disassembled fractures of flexible heterogeneous translations. Desire and experience leave residues in our conscious and sub-conscious perceptions of self. We are able to experience our bodies and identities as expressions of our artistic selves. We are able to live and support others in each others time and need.