you didn’t believe her mother but her
actions show everything confused & erased. maybe they knew the whole time
why would they invite me into their home.
why would they call me back. but you need to accept without proof &
without romantic notions I you are part. native. the edited red & black
& white & yellow & green & purple. the last class we finger
you pick the red paper. if we cherish small risk it’s much less likely we will get into a tsunami. just as much as success. one cannot learn without risk. therefore the community must be in tune with failure. deep breaths. you tell them they had breached their contract with abuse & you would not stand for abuse. she is not your sister in the hospital & perhaps this would have never happened if.
when they left you start crying in front
of the whole class. your friend would have held you. you will say that was such shit. do not look at any
of them. understand emotional punishment is a tool similar to demise. your replacement will make your class cry. no
one will listen look back to you at your desk asking for help. you cannot do
circle time is just ritual & warm
up. do not forget to ask for their name. think about the mouse. he also holds
keys & leaves bruises on her thighs. when you ask about cooking the half
moon is so bright like a sexy secret. somehow this is because of either horses
or headphones or maybe both. ah yes. at this point you will have the most
tomorrow I will apply. maybe apply.
a really sweet boy said he would come to me in beijing I am ok with this kind of excited, there is such a thing as being too nice & it’s very easy to see this. the tone is really in your pussy. it’s actually getting a quiet mean I just imagine dragons or something. she became more of a dog than a horse. running with her as a little filly. It’s too early for music I think.
my cough is
better. I survived. I could feel the mucus being pulled into other parts. It
was anxiety. ok morning. wow I hate synthetic medicine. he helped me so much. frequencies
like medicine bowls just like I asked for it worked. bomb the innocent past
with good frequencies. my gosh. what good notes & transitions for so long
let’s see morning.
giving me bronchitis? my cough seems almost gone. the music opened my diaphragm
& I could feel it working it absorbed everything. almost everything. words
are the inevitable unapproachable doomsday of miscommunication. need to listen
thinking is painful. I told some stranger all my deepest darkest secrets
willingly. thanks antibiotics. antibiotics gosh that’s some weird reaction I
think is very particular to me. antibiotics are rough. give me till Tuesday. I
need an elixer. I can’t miss more work.
I write about other than kissing him forever. a genetic human one I didn’t
learn this. I forgive too easily it’s actually a skill. come to me sweet person
so that I can be sweetly justified. ironically I think he is banking on this.
oh. no will work on this he is so cute. I do love his technical stiff but come
on. he sounds like a dad nun. some people are actually stuck in the 70s it
makes NO sense whatsoever.
the story is city mouse & country mouse. our background is a palace & the puppet house fits perfectly. we will sing the wheels on the bus. the vocabulary is too high for children super fast so the subliminal messaging is crazy. our mc is garfield. what a crazy song that’s why you never remember the chorus. tomorrow we will be the three blind mice we spent so much time on these ears.
is that my neighbor was trying to get into the van & there was a terrible
crash which is why I had to legitimately call I to work it was snowing. she is
still getting used to center time & speaking english she is fine was only because
I was alone. why did I have to get my period today & poor paris she was
trying to bond with me bumped her head & I had none of my team she got so
wanted someone she could trust to hear her. my student was cute on his nose in
chinese class & they said nothing why? I have so many questions why. my
alarm didn’t go off this created a whole world of fables that are not really
which is what I teach what the fuck. people are scaring left & right &
firing me for figuring out my future. ok. humans have lost all empathy &
what it means to be human. they gave me one month because I was sick.
simple. does love matter anymore? I’ve dealt with such hard people for so long
what is the point I’m teaching fucking boat. okay maybe I still try to apply
tomorrow. everything is grey with anticipation & quiet
it’s quite soothing actually very gentle. it’s not raining. bangkok is in a cloud. we are in a mist. I feel so much better.
achillies heel. I love when people know my favorite nickname.
was just published super thankful is an amazing read
sorry teacher I forgot. I needed you to remind me. do you want to know I got a c in french and ap chemistry & still graduated with honors? it was that first balcony of the munich summer we walked the narrow cobblestone roads licking the isar river & drinking some sky. birthday posts always make me miss so many at once old & new. when the universe deals you a temporary wrong hand it’s always such a sweet demonstration of the complete complete right ones, if only for a moment, in disguise.
I should have never fallen for german boys they emptied me. she manipulated the yellow dress to say slow down so her deficit was null. I really do not like some people right now & really love some people right now & they know who they are. I still can’t find home. my dad told me I don’t have a home & he’s scared about one with him. I don’t have a home quite literally.
for me not for anyone else I still try to help but it was lost. at least here I can tell my neighbors to turn their fucking music down in my apartment. it’s actually the worst feeling that you are leaving a place not on youtube terms. I hate auto correct. I miss cooking I miss kitchens maybe in beijing I will have a real house & not feel so temporary.
learn about love however until I had given up.
I had stayed there that was the start of my demise. of boys. I don’t want this
to be a theme any more.
exclamation was from high school. every high school should greet you with an
exclamation point. super grounding. I will write about the birthday weekend
after book day. maybe I will meet a boy I’m very shy.