I guess I’m not really supposed to have sex or go swimming

I just don’t like to miss people I have a very difficult time with the emotion

this has been intellectually exhausted

I cannot start from the beginning

I want to trust someone so that I can break down my fucking brain

to be chill

some do not agree with my approach they are not me and well

their lives will go on

I just need trust now

and everything

will be chill

I also want to be a part of a team that cares about each other

which is my main goal

and why I’m sad really very much more sad

than I originally thought even though everyone else knew